Courtney Durepo (@courtneyhayde)

San Diego// Dog mama// Bride to be -85 pounds// RNY // Self love advocate Jesus follower// Let all that you do be done in love.

Website: http://courtneyhayde.com/

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Having a shitty, self-hate filled evening, so throwing it back to a time I felt confident and beautiful 💓🌸

A little bit psycho, but I love her 💓 #catahoulasofinstagram

6.5 months can do a lot for your body, but also a lot for your soul. I can’t believe I’ve lost 90 pounds. Some days I’m upset about my progress but that’s why I do these side by sides and keep clothing that I used to JUST BARELY fit into... to remind myself that the numbers don’t define me. I was SICK. I was slowly killing myself by eating. I was suicidal. I was miserable. I feel like a whole new life is ahead of me and it makes me so excited and happy for what’s to come. 💓💓 . . . . . . . . #postoprny #rnypostop #rnyjourney #rnygastricbypass #rnycommunity #rnybabes #wlsbabes #wlscommunity #wlstransformation #wlsjourney #weightlossjourney #weightlosstransformation #weightlossdiet #weightlosslife #fitfam #girlswholift #extremeweightlossjourney #extremeweightlosstransformation #babeswhosweat #weightlossideas #weightlossupport #rnystory #6monthspostop #hopequotes #godwithinme #likeforlikeback #wlsjourney #wlsbeforeandafter #beforeandafter

Just a LITTLE LONGER until you’re home to us. I can’t believe how much we’ve both been through and how much things have changed since you left. I’ve experienced 2 surgeries, lost 90 pounds, found an amazing job, moved and planned our whole wedding. Moose has lost a front tooth. Your girls need their man back and I am counting down the days until you’re home again with us. I can’t wait to hug you again and have a full home again. I love you so much @jamesgarvey. Now off to plan and clean and rearrange our home and bedroom ten times so it’s perfect before you get here 😂💓♥️🇺🇸 . . . . . . . . #usn #navystrong #milso #deployment #deploymenthomecoming #deplyomentsucks #deploymentstrong #lovemyfamily #realtionshipgoals #homecoming #militaryhomecoming #countdown #homecomingcountdown

6 years ago you asked me to be your girlfriend the week before you left for boot camp. We had been friends for... maybe 4 months. We took a chance and a leap of faith on each other. And here we are. 5 states, thousands of miles and one puppy later. I never thought at 18 I’d meet the love of my life, but I found so much more than that. I found my soulmate. And I am so lucky to be able to do life with you. I can’t wait to welcome you home and marry you in a few short months. Being able to call you my husband will be the best feeling in the world. I love you so much @jamesgarvey. To many many more years together getting drunk off of orange crushes, getting sunburnt because I don’t put on the sunscreen you tell me to, traveling the states and the world, smothering our puppy with kisses while she try’s to escape, making you try weird foods I love, dragging you to country music concerts and me to weird indie punk concerts, brunching so hard we gain 5 pounds a meal, and never going a day without telling each other how much we mean to one another. I’m so lucky to have you in my life. And I am so proud to call you mine. Happy Anniversary ♥️ . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #relationshipgoals #longdistancerelationship #deployment #navyspouse #navywife #milso #relationshipadvice #anniversary #love #longdistancelove #brunching #catahoulaleoparddog #catahoulafamily #militaryspouse #fiance #engaged

No longer our little babies 😭💓 #germanshepherdsofig #catahoulasofinstagram

God never gives you something that you can’t handle. That He won’t be there through you with every step of the way. These last 5 years have been hell. I can’t even believe I’m typing out the words 5 years. It feels like yesterday that I was graduating from high school and you were proudly watching me from the audience. Losing not only my dad, but my mom at a very young age, has affected me and will affect me for the rest of my life. My deepest darkest depressions come from how much I truly miss belonging to and having a family. I miss being able to pick up the phone and call you, tell you how I’m doing, share my passions with you, my wants and hopes for the future. My dad and I always had a strained relationship. But towards the end of his life with his failing health we began to make amends and repair what we had broken. We realized that we were very similar people, which caused our arguing. While I’m so grateful for those days, there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t wish he was here. There is no pain in the world like losing a parent. And I’ve had to do it twice. Some days I really don’t know how I keep moving on , but here I am. I’m leaning and learning through God why this has happened and how I can possibly move forward. With my wedding coming up, and this being 5 years since my dad has passed and 15 since my mom, lots of emotions have come up. No little girl should have to get married without either of their parents let alone both. But I’m just grateful for my older brother, who’s basically turned into my father, and a fiancé who loves me more than I could have ever imagined being loved. James and I have the type of love my mom and dad did, and I know somewhere up there they are smiling down with James’s mom knowing that we found and have each other for life. I miss you so much dad. All I want is to press your contact that’s still in my phone and hear your voice at the other end. I promise I’m doing all I can to make you and mom proud. Thank you for every opportunity you have given me in my life. I wouldn’t be who I am today without you. My heart hurts every day I wake up without you. I love you so incredibly much. ♥️

Thrilled to be starting a new position today as the manager of online marketing and advertising for a group of lash boutiques here in San Diego 🎉💓 I waited and prayed for an opportunity that I could soar with. One that would ideally let me work flexible but with a full time salary, I get to work from home or from the salons if I want to and be in charge of my own schedule. This is so important to me because with Navy life it’s difficult to find a job that’s flexible and movable and you can do from anywhere. I’m excited to begin this position and grow within the company and use what I learn to grow my own social spaces and blog. Never give up on yourself. Cheers to new opportunities 💓💓

There’s no stronger bond than me and this baby girl. I love her more than life itself. Moose has saved me from anxiety and depression. Gotten me through this entire deployment. Been by my side through hospital visits and surgeries. Mans best friend is a for real statement. Can’t wait until you see @jamesgarvey again and our little family is finally reunited. #dogmomforlife 🐶♥️💓

SCREW THE SCALE! 🤟🏻 Two months difference! The left photo was taken in December. I was discouraged and disappointed. I thought I had plateaued in my weight loss and the scale was never going to move again. My body was going to stay the same. I felt hopeless and lost just like with any other health journey I had begun before. BUT the difference was... I didn’t give up. I kept up with my plan. I began drinking more veggie filled protein shakes and focusing on how much protein I was consuming daily and tried to up my intake, and over the last 2 months the scale has begun to move again! But most importantly, I FEEL smaller, healthier, and like my body has shed inches. I hadn’t done a side by side in a while... and I was right! The inches have shed off. SCREW THAT TINY DEVIL BOX WE CALL A SCALE! It lies! It makes you feel inadequate and lame and like you aren’t good enough or doing enough. IT IS JUST A NUMBER! You ARE enough, you are DOING enough, if you are making the effort your body will thank you in return in so many others ways besides the stupid f-ing scale. Remember that. I have always been addicted to the scale. Having and seeing that “certain number”. And yes; I do get encouraged when I see it going down. But my #1 rule to myself during this journey was to not let it rule my life. And I’m never going to let a number determine my progress or worth ever again.

6 years ago I took a bus over 2 days to Florida to see you for a long weekend. We were 19. I’m pretty sure I sold extra furniture I had in my apartment to be able to afford the bus ticket. But we made it happen. Love doesn’t have any boundaries. It doesn’t look the same for everyone. But for us, it’s looked like sacrifice, hard work, and commitment since the moment we met. And I wouldn’t want it any other way. I never knew I’d meet the love of my life at 18. Or that we’d travel through over 25 states and lived in 5 different ones together so far. But that’s the thing about life, and about God. He doesn’t give you what you want, he gives you what you NEED. Sometimes, God can answer you with a “no”. For those “no’s”, I’m thankful that every single one lead me to this life with you. I love you so much @jamesgarvey. I can’t wait to see you soon. ♥️

Broken. 💔 The only word I can use to describe the person on the left. That was the girl who lost both of her parents before age 20. Who felt abandoned, hopeless, longing for a sense of family, caught up in a whirlwind of depression and anxiety. She was the girl who defined herself by her trials. Who cried herself to sleep every single night because she didn’t know what she had done to her own body, she didn’t know who the fuck she was anymore, she didn’t have a purpose. She was WATCHING her life happen to her. . 6 months ago today I was undergoing gastric bypass surgery. I never thought I’d share these photos. I can’t explain to you how embarrassed I was when I looked at these photos when we got down from the hike. I didn’t even know who the hell that person was. It was like I was trapped inside of someone else’s body... but I wasn’t. I had done this to myself. . This wasn’t an easy decision, and it has forever and will always change my life. But if there’s one piece of advice I have for anyone struggling with weight or self esteem- do it for yourself. This was the MOST SELFISH decision I had made in my entire life, because it was completely about me. Yes, there are benefits to it for those around me, but this was about my health, my future, my wants and needs as a human being. I wanted so much more for myself. And while I still have BAD days mental health wise- I can honestly at the end of the day look at myself in the mirror and be HAPPY and PROUD of what I see. . I don’t know where I go from here, but I sure as fuck know I’ll never be that broken girl again. And I can’t wait to see where I am in another 6 months. For now, I’m not letting the word broken define me anymore. HOPE, is what I live by. 💓 . . . . #postoprny #rnypostop #rnyjourney #rnygastricbypass #rnycommunity #rnybabes #wlsbabes #wlscommunity #wlstransformation #wlsjourney #weightlossjourney #weightlosstransformation #weightlossdiet #weightlosslife #fitfam #girlswholift #extremeweightlossjourney #extremeweightlosstransformation #babeswhosweat #weightlossideas #weightlossupport #rnystory #6monthspostop #hopequotes #godwithinme #likeforlikeback #wlsjourney #wlsbeforeandafter #beforeandafter

My FAVORITE plant based protein shake using @liveowyn plant based protein. Literally can’t say higher praise for this protein supplement it’s by far the best tasting plant based protein on the market. ◾️2 scoops of @liveowyn chocolate protein powder ◾️1 cup of ice ◾️Handful of spinach (I like to break mine up small making it easier on my blender) ◾️Vanilla UNSWEETENED almond milk ◾️Frozen banana ( a few chunks ) ◾️Chopped dates Blend it all and enjoy 🎉🍌🍫 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #proteinshake #owyn #owynprotein #proteinshakerecipe #rnycommunity #veganfood #likeforlikeback #vsgcommunity #likeforlikes #rnygastricbypasssurgery #rnygastricbypass #rnyeats #rnysurgery #fitfam #fitnessvideo #fitnessvid #proteinvideo #proteinshakerecipe #rnyfood #rnytransformation #wlscommunity #wlstransformation #wlsjourney #wlsfood #wlsbeforeandafter #wlsbabes #rnybabes #vsgbabes

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