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Hello ladies! I didn't plan on spilling my heart and then skipping off. I read all of your beautiful words you shared with me on my last post. I am truly thankful for each one of you and the beautiful community we've been woven into together. I've taken a few days for my heart and mind to ponder what my place is here. How can God use me, my flaws & His grace right here in this simple spot. || so here is to authentic, messy, loud, Grace filled life. ❤💛💚💙💜🌈✨✌
My Monday eyes are seeing color in pinkish-red. I'm behind on my #click issues so I'm taking this still moment to catch up. I've been doing a bit of reflecting today. I have to say this, I LOVE being in the thirty age range. I dreaded and even shed a few tears but I wouldn't switch a day with that twenty year old me. I wish I could tell her a few things though. The speed in which I find peace in the bad and the pure sweetness in the good, betters me every single time. My heart just doesn't hold onto the pain, not like it use to. I still have sad, bad days but I'm not bound to them. If I had to sum it up I'd say the dog days of my child self/hood are over. Oh time, I love your understanding.
I *had* a million things to do. Then my blue eyed boy climbed onto the couch next to me, slid his chubby little hand in mine and suddenly no other task needed tending.
One of those days 😩 being a single, full time working mom who's also in school can be really really hard. I take care of Lai 24/7 other than when I'm in class. She sleeps less than any baby I've ever known in my life lol so it's really hard to study & get everything done. While it is very hard I'm proud to say I have better grades than I did before Lai, I make more money than I would with my teaching degree, and I'm finally back to my high school weight. This girl pushes me to be the best I can be and I wouldn't change a thing about my life. I may be exhausted and have days like these where I want to give up but my girl makes me happier than I ever knew imaginable. I'll do whatever it takes to give her the world. #teethingbabe #motherhoodunplugged #nodaysoff
Miss. Elliana gained 2 pounds in 11 days. I am so proud. Breastfeeding is an amazing experience but no mother can say it is easy in the beginning. It takes determination and strength. For me Ellianas frequent nursing scared me and made me think something was wrong with my milk production. The doctor offered formula right away, it broke my heart thinking of not being able to exclusively breast feed. I made the decision to decline. I trusted my intuition and my baby and stuck with it... nursing on demand no matter how frequent. Ignoring that voice in my head that said she wasn't getting enough milk. Now we are on a wonderful little schedule. She eats frequently during the day and sleeps at least 4 hours at night. The doctor today was amazed and congratulated me for how much she has grown. She told me to just keep doing what i am doing 😀 I am so blessed, so grateful. To any mother struggling with EBF, I promise it gets better. Follow your baby's lead, they are smarter then us when it comes to this. I am always here if you need support or advice💗#normalizebreastfeeding #breastisbeat #motherhoodunplugged #empowerment #EBF